Ever have something bother you but you can’t figure out why? Like a phobia you don’t remember developing, or a reaction that seems way too big for the situation?
That’s how I felt about labels for years.
Anytime someone asked what kind of healer I was, my chest got tight. I’d try to introduce myself with some official sounding title and the words just felt… off.
I figured it was imposter syndrome or maybe I hadn’t landed on the right label yet. Turns out, it was neither.
What Happened During My QHHT Session
A few years back, I decided to book a QHHT session for myself. I’d been doing intuitive oracle readings and reiki for a while, but I really needed to understand why I had this weird block around defining what I do.
What came through completely surprised me.
I found myself in a past life where spiritual work weren’t just frowned upon, it could get you killed. I was a woman who worked with energy and herbs, making personalized protection items for people in my village. I’d bundle specific herbs and materials for each person, setting intentions into everything I touched.
Then someone I trusted came asking for help. I gave it, like I always did. Except they weren’t there for help. They were there to report me to the people hunting witches. I had been taken and burned for practicing what was labeled as dark magic .
Everything Started Making Sense
Suddenly, so many things made sense. The fear of talking about my abilities. How I used to hide my work, even from people close to me. That uncomfortable feeling when someone asked me to explain what I do. The little voice whispering “this is dangerous” every time I thought about being more public.
Even practical things like how I never put my name on the jewelry I make. I’d create pieces infused with specific intentions as I did in that past life, but I’d leave them unmarked. No signature. No way to trace them back to me.
When I lived in Hawaii, I sold my jewelry at several boutiques. One day I ran into a woman wearing one of my bracelets. I knew it was mine instantly, but she had no clue I’d made it. Instead of saying anything, I asked where she got it. She mentioned my brand name.
Instead of telling her I was the creator, I asked her about the energy she felt from it. She described the exact intention I’d placed into it along with what her own energetic responses to it.
I asked what she felt from the bracelet instead. She described the exact intention I’d placed in it, literally word for word what I’d been thinking when I made it.
After this encounter, I realized I had a unique opportunity to test whether my abilities were accurate or just my imagination. I continued asking customers and clients questions, training myself to sense and understand the multiple layers of energy I’d been feeling.
Looking back now, I see that I wasn’t just testing my abilities, I was trying to debunk myself and prove that psychic or intuitive abilities weren’t real. In reality, I was really just hiding and protecting myself from being seen, because my soul remembers when being seen got me killed.
On another level, I think I also believed that any intuitive abilities were truly dark magic because that was the definition in that lifetime. But in this lifetime, I understand that magic is simply magic. The conduit and the receiver have the control over how it moves through their energy field.
Why This Matters Now
That QHHT session didn’t just explain my past, it also explained my present. My resistance to labels isn’t some random insecurity or lack of confidence. It’s old, old wisdom trying to keep me safe from something that doesn’t even exist in this lifetime anymore.
In that past life, my identity was literally used to execute me. Once people could define what I did, they could condemn it. Once I had a label, I could be hunted.
I carried that trauma through lifetimes. The deep belief that labels equal danger.
Now when someone asks “so what do you do?” and I feel that tightness (which still happens, by the way and I’m working through it), I honor it. I send it love. Because it protected me once, even if I don’t need that protection anymore. It is my form of infinite gratitude.
In this life, I get to choose differently. I get to be undefined. Unlimited. Free.
It Always Comes Together
With all of the discoveries revealed in this one session, here’s what I didn’t expect: once I understood where this resistance came from, I stopped seeing it as something broken that needed fixing. It’s not a wound begging to be healed. It’s wisdom. It’s part of my journey.
And honestly? Maybe my soul is also saying “what you’re meant to do doesn’t have a name yet.”
So I’ve stopped trying to label myself. Stopped apologizing for not having some clean, neat title. Stopped cramming myself into boxes that were never designed to hold what I actually am.
Instead, I stay fluid. I meet people where they are and bring through whatever needs to come through in that specific moment.
No script. No predetermined role. No label. Just presence and whatever wants to move through me.
If you’ve ever felt unexplained resistance to something, I invite you to look deeper. Maybe it’s not resistance at all. Maybe it’s your soul remembering something it’s already lived through, and that memory is here to guide you. Listen to it.
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