Recently, I participated in a podcast discussion where we explored the many ways to heal and how I offer my work of Quantum Healing Hypnosis and intuitive sessions as one of those paths. (The full episode releases in early January and I’ll link it here when it goes live!) The conversation flowed naturally, touching on what it is that I do, and in a moment of complete honesty I said,
” …whatever it is that I’m doing, I don’t know what I am doing. I’m just doing what feels aligned. I don’t know how to say it sometimes.”
I’ve spent the better part of a decade exploring and immersing myself in the nuance and subtleties of spirit communication, intuitive communication, and various forms of energetic healing. And still to this day, I find myself wondering how to explain what I “do,” because the experience and interaction is always changing and never the same. Each person’s journey and energetic frequency is so special and unique that when we work together, I need to stay fluid to meet them where they are. But this post isn’t just about my ongoing exploration of my work.
After we disconnected from the podcast, my energy felt amplified. The reason? Up until recently I’ve kept my work private and by referral only, and for the first time I had discussed my practice in a public way. As I went over the wonderful thoughts and moments throughout our discussion, I could slowly feel my old thought patterns and feelings of vulnerability bubble up. I began to reflect on our conversation, and my mind started to recall specific moments and what I shared, picking it apart.
I thought about how we live in a world obsessed with five-year plans, yearly goals, experts, and neatly categorized identities. And then I began to question the honest statement I made. In most spaces, “I don’t know” is usually viewed as code for being unprepared or underqualified.
Throughout the rest of the day, I was able to organize these thought patterns and sit with them, which is why I wanted to share this. This is what realignment looks like in practice. I spent the evening sitting with that discomfort, journaling and reflecting on what that specific statement means to me and why I felt so strongly about it. What I realized is that I wasn’t expressing a lack of skill—I was expressing a refusal to box myself in and a commitment to remain open and clear.
Labels are Optional
To fit in professionally, or perhaps to validate my worth, I felt pressure to find a label. Potential clients, family, and friends have asked me what I do and how it happens. But none of the labels ever felt like they fit. Even during the years I practiced Reiki, it felt “off” to call myself a Reiki Healer or Master. I have so much respect for the people who find community and purpose in those titles, but for me, they never felt right.
This actually ties back to a discovery I made during my own past life exploration in a QHHT session—a validating and therapeutic connection to the origin of my deep internal resistance to being labeled or bound by a definition. (If you’re interested in that story, you can read more about it here.)
While titles such as Healer, Channeler, or Spiritual Guide carry beautiful weight for some, I’ve always felt like they caused an imbalance or misalignment for me. Each time I tried to put a label on myself, I would subconsciously stop remembering who I am. My personal definition of an awakening is not becoming something else. It is about remembering who you authentically are. Like waking up from this dream until we decide to dream again in another life form or “time”.
I wrote in one of my journals that “if I call myself a ‘Healer,’ I feel confined to the boundaries of what a healer is supposed to do.” I don’t want to be defined or finished, I want to be unlabeled and limitless. It’s now become my practice of being completely intentional about my craft in the present while allowing my future path to reveal itself as I shift, grow, and evolve.
Frequency is Never Static
The truth is, I never truly “know” exactly what I’m doing in the way my logical mind tries to organize or explain it. In my sessions, and in my life, I’m not following a script or playing a role. I’ve discovered that I am a frequency interacting with the infinite frequencies of the individuals around me. In every moment, that energy is shifting, harmonizing, disconnecting, and creating new collaborations.
My perspective has become this: by deciding that I “know” exactly what I am, I stop listening to the nuances of the interactions happening in front of and around me. By staying in the “unknown,” I maintain curiosity and openness. I’m allowing the work to be as vast, fluid, and conscious as the universe itself.
The Compass of the Human Experience
My human experience has also taught me something vital about what “peace” actually looks like. I used to think that evolving meant reaching a finish line where the “dense” parts of being human the insecurities, the trauma, the negative self-talk would just vanish.
What I’ve discovered is that my highest, most evolved self isn’t one with no problems. Instead, it’s one that transforms them into opportunities to expand. When that feeling of being seen as unqualified came up, I didn’t see it as a failure. I saw it as an opportunity to observe where I am in my growth. It was a compass showing me exactly where I still need more love, care, and attention.
Openness is Not Uncertainty
This experience was a magnificent opportunity to recalibrate and clarify the difference between being lost and being open. For me, saying “I don’t know” means I am where I need to be and in my highest alignment. It isn’t a sign of uncertainty or a lack of confidence. Instead, it’s about my openness and courage to acknowledge that no label is enough to contain the truth of my potential and the individual I’m working with.
To me, knowing is declaring, “I have arrived,” or the door is closed. But growing says, “I am a work in progress,” and that door transforms into a gateway that only allows what is meant for my highest frequency.
Through my experiences with QHHT sessions and speaking with the Higher Selves of multiple individuals, I’ve seen firsthand how every word, feeling, and experience carries a meaning and perspective that is entirely unique to the person experiencing it.
The next time you hear that phrase, or if you find yourself using it in your own life, try not to judge it too quickly. Instead of viewing it as a weakness, stay curious. Explore what it actually means for you. I used to be afraid of uncertainty. But once I started embracing this term and using it with a new meaning, I began to love it. It truly opened everything up for me. Now, when I’m faced with a choice to grow or challenge myself, I actually prefer the “unknown” because that’s where the magic is.
I hope this serves as a loving reminder that alignment and growth are part of a continuous practice, not a destination.
If you’re curious about exploring your own alignment through QHHT or intuitive work, I’d be honored work with you. You can learn more about that here.
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