Why Embracing Uncertainty Is Your Path to Spiritual Growth

Recently I participated in a podcast discussion where we explored the many ways to heal and how I offer my work of Quantum Healing Hypnosis and intuitive sessions as one of those paths. (The full episode here)

The conversation flowed naturally, touching on what it is that I do, and in a moment of complete honesty I said,

” …whatever it is that I’m doing, I don’t know what I am doing. I’m just doing what feels aligned. I don’t know how to say it sometimes.”

I have spent over 15 years exploring the nuance and subtleties of spirit communication, intuitive work, and various forms of energetic healing. And still I find myself wondering how to explain what it is that I do.

Each person’s energetic frequency is so unique that I have to stay flexible and adjust to the way they communicate energetically. Think of it like changing the settings on a dial to find the right station. No two interactions are ever the same.

But this post is not just about the ongoing exploration of my work. It is about how the things we often view as problems are actually the solution, or the key toward spiritual growth, awareness, and your highest potential.

A Downward Spiral

After the podcast ended my energy felt amplified. Up until recently I had kept my work private and by referral only, and for the first time I had discussed it publicly. As I reflected on the conversation I could slowly feel old thought patterns and feelings of vulnerability rise up. My mind started replaying specific moments, picking them apart.

Was I in denial? Was I living in a false view of myself? Maybe I wasn’t really evolving?

As you can see, this was the beginning of a downward spiral of self doubt.

I thought about how in most spaces, “I don’t know” is viewed as being unprepared or underqualified. How we live in a world obsessed with five year plans, yearly goals, experts, net worth, followers, and neatly categorized identities.

I could feel the weight building until I consciously decided to take a brief pause. I asked my Self why was I giving so much weight to three words?

In this simple moment I realized I had the power to choose how I wanted to process this.

What Growth Looks Like

Throughout the rest of the day I used this as an opportunity to examine these thought patterns. They had not resurfaced in such a long time, probably because I had been avoiding them by remaining private.

This is what growth, realignment, and evolving actually looks like in practice. It is about living in alignment with your words, thoughts, and actions every day. That includes the shadows as much as the light. On a side note, a lot of what I once thought was positive thinking was actually what blocked me from growing. Trying to stay in the “light” without acknowledging the dark is its own kind of avoidance.

I spent the evening journaling and reflecting on the doubt and discomfort. What I realized is that when I said “I don’t know” I wasn’t expressing a lack of skill. I was expressing a refusal to box myself in. To honor the commitment I made to myself when I decided to go on this inner journey of remaining open and clear, even if that meant being nothing.

At the time, that was my deepest fear. That I would fulfill the words of my parents and become nothing, because that is what they told me I was when I walked away from them completely. But what I realized that being “nothing” leaves so much potential to then become what I truly wanted and was meant to become. Without any expectation, restrictions or conditions other than my own.

Definitions and How We Use Them

My mind wandered into thoughts about how the definitions and titles we use reflect where we are on our journey. What and how you define things, people, places, emotions, and your own thoughts will often change as you evolve. So it is usually a useful reference point to stop, see where you are, and redefine as needed.

Relating this back to what had happened earlier in the day, I thought about titles and labels like healer, channeler, or spiritual guide. They help describe who we are within social norms but can become something we attach to so strongly that they end up limiting our potential to evolve beyond them. I have always felt an imbalance when clients call me these things or when I am asked to explain what I do. For a long time I couldn’t explain why.

My QHHT session helped me understand where that resistance actually came from. It revealed a past life connection I wrote about separately [here], but what became clear is that it didn’t begin or end there. The resistance to being named, defined, or contained is a thread that runs through all of it, past, present, and potential. Understanding the origin of it in another lifetime was only one layer. In this lifetime I am still uncovering how it connects, how it has shaped the choices I have made, and how releasing it continues to change what I am able to do and become. Labels do serve a purpose. They help us see patterns, categorize, and organize so that we can learn more about our Selves because we are all full of infinite layers. The problem is not the label itself. It is attaching permanent worth or limitation to it. Instead of being a point of reference in time, it becomes a decision about what you are and are not capable of. That is where the imbalance lives.

Releasing that changed what I understood an awakening to be. My original definition was built from what I had read or heard from others. Becoming wiser, unphased, ethereal, someone who could smile at any challenge and stay above it all. What I have come to understand through my own experience is that a true awakening is about remembering who you authentically are. It is not measured by a bank account, the number of spiritual books memorized, or followers online. It is in the seemingly subtle everyday choices that move you toward alignment with your words, actions, and thoughts.

Staying in the Unknown

This is also another layer of why titles and definitions have never felt right to me. When it comes to the work I do, or even when I receive my own intuitive insight while channeling or tuning in, I never truly know what I am doing in the way my logical mind would explain it. So, how do I give a fixed name to something that is designed to stay fluid? I can’t.

This used to frustrate me deeply. Over time I have discovered it is because we are all just energetic frequencies interacting with other frequencies. At every moment that energy is shifting, harmonizing, disconnecting, and creating new ones.

Staying in the unknown keeps me curious and open. In that state I allow the work to be as vast, fluid, and conscious as the energy itself. This has also helped me tremendously in facilitating QHHT sessions and communicating with higher dimensional beings. Every word, feeling, and experience carries a meaning entirely unique to the person experiencing it. And that is only possible because I am not arriving with a fixed idea or definition of what “should” happen.

For a long time I confused the two. I thought not knowing meant being lost. But they are not the same thing at all. Being lost means you don’t know where you are going yet, which is also not a bad thing. Being open means you have chosen not to decide in advance. One contracts until you decide otherwise and the other expands. The moment I stopped limiting myself with my own definitions, including the definitions I had placed on my own abilities and work, was the moment everything had more room to move.

I really do believe that being lost and being open are two ways of saying the same thing. The difference is perspective. When I say “I don’t know” I am expressing an openness and a refusal to let any label contain the truth of what I and the people I work with are capable of. It also allows what is waiting to arrive, and what no longer belongs to go.

I hope this is a useful reminder to explore uncertainty rather than avoid it. To define it and clarify what it means to you. I used to avoid uncertainty. Now I see it for what it actually is, a key. To healing, to awareness, to growth, to magic. And unlike any definition or title I have ever tried to place on myself or my work, it has no limit.

Until next time, may you always be evergreen: ever expanding, ever evolving, and ever aligned.

Lisa

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