Karma Isn’t a Punishment, It’s a Rebalancing

Labels and titles never felt right to me. I assumed it stemmed from low self esteem growing up, or because I never really fit in anywhere and used that as a defense mechanism. But it wasn’t until all of the little random puzzle pieces I had been collecting started fitting together that I saw a connection to something more. Something that went deeper than this lifetime.

Memories of a Past Life

Twelve years ago in Hokkaido, visiting my sister-in-law, I met a friend of hers and we connected immediately talking about energy and Reiki. She offered to translate for me if I joined a Reiki course with her. On our daily drives to the class I began receiving vivid memory flashbacks of a past life that she and I had shared together.

This blew my mind and at first I didn’t mention them to her because I couldn’t believe it, but it became so overwhelming and frequent that I decided to mention them to her.

I saw myself in an incarnation where any spiritual work could be considered the work of the devil and punishable by death. We often worked together and she was an herbalist while I worked with energy and her herbs, creating personalized protection items for people in the village. People would often visit and I would bundle the specific herbs she selected from a field just outside the village and wrap them in particular layers and structures based on the person, setting intentions into and blessings into them.

A villager I trusted came seeking help. I gave it as I normally did, not knowing they had come to gather evidence. I was reported to the witch hunters, taken, and burned for practicing what was called heresy.

Suddenly Everything Made Sense

This explained my fear of being public about my abilities. My instinct to keep my name off my work to stay anonymous. The way I am mesmerized by fire and yet never want to be too close. How only recently I began offering sessions publicly rather than by referral only.

It still makes me emotional after all these years. I see it as completing an layered orbit around the core of my soul’s journey to close it through healing a painful part of the learning process and entering a new cycle.

I can only feel deep appreciation for this experience, even for the death. Carrying my connection of weaving protection and healing for others with me into this lifetime through every piece of jewelry I ever made and continue to make.

What I Have Learned About Karma

I used to believe karma meant payback or a collection debt and credits. That the hardships and trauma in this life were punishments for wrongs committed in past incarnations. But this memory revealed something different. I wasn’t being punished for helping people, I was being shown how energy work was misunderstood in that time and place. It was automatically seen as malicious rather than what it actually is, a source of energy where intention is what matters most.

I now believe karma is not a punishment. It is a rebalancing. Imagine your soul traveling along a spectrum through each incarnation, recalibrating to find its equilibrium. It has nothing to do with reward or punishment, only understanding through adjustment or perspective.

My QHHT Session Pulled It Together.

While this particular past life surfaced long before my QHHT session, it deepened my understanding of it years later. I asked my Higher Self whether I had imagined this incarnation, or whether it had been influenced by a film or something I had read during a period in my teens when I was immersed in wicca and the occult. It not only confirmed the incarnation but explained the soul agreements we had made and why we chose to meet again in this lifetime.

My Higher Self also revealed that my resistance to titles is not insecurity or lack of confidence. It is an old response trying to protect me from something that no longer exists in this reality. The fear of being named, identified, and targeted had traveled with me across centuries.

At the end of the session my Higher Self cleared the trauma of betrayal, judgment, and the belief that visibility equals danger.

Undefined by Choice

Today I remain undefined by choice rather than fear. This allows me to bring through whatever needs to come through in any given moment. No script, no predetermined role, or fixed identity.

The greatest gift of understanding my past incarnations was not just healing old wounds. It was recognizing that what I once thought was weakness in a resistance to labels was actually an alignment toward flexibility and range. And what I thought was fear was actually discernment.

Until next time, may you always be evergreen: ever expanding, ever evolving, and ever aligned.

Lisa